"There's a person in your life for a time and a place."

One of the pieces of wisdom gleaned from good ol' Thomas. I'm not so sure yet if I believe in that particular statement, though I use it in arguments often enough. People are in your life because it is mutually beneficial in some way or another. You enjoy each other's company, you have similar beliefs/values/ideas/interests/ etc. When the relationship moves to a point where it isn't satisfying, it ends, more or less painfully. With more or less time in between the actual letting go and the healing.

Sometimes, relationships end in certain ways and still continue in others. Business partners may not hang out after work at the bar anymore, but still do well at the business part of it.

So why is it still so hard to be friends with someone with whom you previously had a romantic relationship? If it was mutual, things seem to go alright, but the healing apparently cannot take place if it was one sided.

Oh, how I wish life were simpler.

Duh.

I haven't yet taken the time to finish anything I've written (so scarce, anyway) and I figured I'll wait until I have my computer to save things on to do final editing/ typing up kind of deal.

It's been a week for sickness and despair, I'll tell you that. It's like the world forgot that autumn had to come, and therefore end the carefree summer. The beauty of the season and it's changing fires is being ignored, it seems, by the world at large. Everyone has more to worry about, more pressing issues at hand, than to endure the changes of the Earth and rejoice in the coming of winter, and the rebirth of the sun. Maybe, if we just took the time to contemplate our lives in the cycle of the universe, we may just be healed. It's my direst wish at the moment, anyhow.

And I'll leave you with...

"Silent dance with death.
Everything is lost.
Torn by the arrival of Autumn.
The blink of an eye, you know it's me.
You keep the dagger close at hand.

And you saw nothing.
False love turned to pure hate.
The wind cried a lamentation
before merging with the grey.

Demon of the fall.

Gasping for another breath.
She rose, screaming at closed doors.
Seductive faint mist forging
through the cracks in the wall.

I shant resist.
In tears for all of eternity.
She turned around and faced me for the first time.

Run away, run away.
Just one second, and I was left with nothing.
Her fragrance still pulsating through damp air.
That day came to an end.

And she had lost in me, her CREDENCE"

"Demon of the Fall", Opeth, " My Arms, Your Hearse"

And more upbeat:

"Heal myself-a feather on my heart
Look inside-there never was a start
Peel myself-dispose of severed skin
All subsides-around me and within

There's nothing painful in this
There's no upheaval
Redemption for my pathos
All sins undone

Awaiting word on what's to come
In helpless prayers a hope lives on
As I've come clean I've forgotten what I promised
In the rays of the sun I am longing for the darkness"
"Closure" , Opeth, "Damnation"

Twilight and Beauty,
Salome

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