I'm gonna just go right into this one...

I just want to connect.

Not with just your skin, but with your mind.

My existence thrives on those evolutionary and

eye-opening, mind-opening conversations.

You may hail me as a dork, nerd or geek

But the books of which I speak

would change your very philosophies,

Your prejudices challenged,

Your idea of what it means to be an individual disillusioned.

For we are all one, and yes, the part that is uniquely you exists,

As separate, as we all do, now.

Once the illusion is wiped away

And we can honestly embrace

as sister and brother

Then you will understand why

I just want to connect.

That is why the simple skin-deep fuck is worthless to me.

Because to fuck with me is to pray and worship.

 

If your mind cannot grasp

the words that we speak with

Our souls when our bodies touch and entwine…

You are not worth my time.

If you are still stuck in the ideologies

Of what a beautiful and perfect body is…

You are not worth my time, nor my mind.

If you can’t fathom what Beauty

can be in a room without materials and makeup and mirrors,

If you can’t see Beauty

In our very existence,

You cannot connect with me.

 

For anyone who can see and understand,…

I’m here waiting.

After waiting and worrying over someone who obviously is not worth my time, I've broken free. I'm happy to let go, and I didn't think I ever would be. Show you what happens when you "grow up", I suppose.

I'm through looking for people to connect with. All the people who say the things I want to hear are fake, or so it has been up to now. With the few exceptions of the people I now choose to surround myself with, that is.
I was reminded this weekend of just how wonderful it is to have people in your life who care about you not because you are family (though that is nice, too) and not because being your friend will get them something, but to have people in your life who love and respect you for who you are. I have the most amazing people in my life, here in Portland and some still hiding back in Montana. I am thankful for these people every moment. When I'm sad, or when I'm stressed, I just bring to mind the love I feel around these people, and their words and thoughts echo in my mind as well. And when I'm happy, I remember them too. And I've been pretty happy this last week. I hope it's been spreading to you all.

I'm going to leave you with the song from my heart, but you just may have to step away from the monitor to hear it.

Twilight and Beauty,
Salome

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