So far, it's a great year. My birthday went very well, thanks to all who participated in some way or other. Twas damn interesting, after a while, and now I'm glad everything cooled down, for the moment.

And for this year in metal,.... Man, so many great bands. Dimmu Borgir, Three Inches of Blood, Black Dahlia Murder, Opeth, the paganfest with Eluveitie, Tyr and many more, Dark Tranquility, the all-mighty Dethklok and now I just heard Iced Earth will be coming in October. Along with all the bands touring with these acts, this will be a very memorable year in metal for me. (Dana, you've got to come up to see Iced Earth!)

Well, it seems another one of my yearly trends has come around, and I seem to be re-locating once more. That's 4 times in 3 years. No Bueno. But this place is better for me than any place I've lived in before, both monetarily and roommate wise. Cool guy I don't really know but that I trust and we get along. Yay.
It's in NE, near Killingsworth, an area and neighborhood in which I've fallen in love. Combined that with the actual house and it's garden, the close-ness of restaurants and stores, and bike routes,  I really do think (and hope) that this will be my new mostly permanent home. Until, you know, 10 years from know when I'll be rich and infamous.

Speaking of infamous, that Ron Jeremy guy is in Portland an awful lot.

I've recently been involved in a ton of personal trauma, drama, and discovery. It was a great revelation that I discovered that I, am in fact, a drama queen. I am not very proud of this, mind, but hopefully it's one of those kinds of problems that 'Now you know what it is, you can admit it's a problem and begin to fix it" sort of things. To anyone who wishes to help me in this, when ever I get gossipy, stop me.

A quote from one of my favorite punk bands that I recent found via SU, :"I would rather live in prison in a George Orwellian world, than a pacified society of happy boys and girls. I would rather know my enemy and let you know the same, who's windows were smashed and who's tires were slashed. And where to point the fucking blame"   Propaghandi

A very happy congratulations  to my dearest friend Alyx on his wedding. I know it's belated, but I still wanted you to know how truly happy I feel for you and your bride. A thousand blessings!

According to numerologist Glynis MCCants, this year, a 1 year, is the year for fierce competition. Ain't that the truth. It seems every corner of my life has been throwing me bags of competition. Doesn't it just bite that I'm not very competitive? Patience seems to be the best way for me to "win" anything. It's worked so far at work, which is smoothing nicely, and I hope it will carry over to the other aspects of my life. She also mentions August of this year to be particularly moving. The Olympics in China, more election drama, also happens to be when my restaurant is closing for remodeling. We shall see...

Does anyone know of the edible possibilities of seahorses? I had an odd dream today of a seahorse that was curled around the base of a pineapple. It might have been one of "those" dreams and I've just been witness to the newest craze in exotic foods. Or I'm just crazy. Oh, you know I am!

Leaving with a touching song, one I know many people have adopted as theme or dogma.

"
There was no time for pain
No energy for anger
The sightlessness of hatred
slips away
Walking through winter streets
alone
He stops and take a breath
With confidence and self-
control

I look at the world and see no
understanding
I'm waiting to find some sense
of strength
I'm begging you from the
bottom of my heart to show
me understanding

I need to live life
Like some people never will
So find me kindness
Find me beauty
Find me truth
When temptation brings me to
my knees
And I lay here drained of
strength
Show me kindness
Show me beauty
Show me truth

The way your heart sounds
makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure
the pain that we all feel
The way your heart beats
makes all the difference
In learning to live
Here before me is my soul
I'm learning to live
I won't give up
Till I've no more to give

Listening to the city
Whispering its violence
I set out watching from above
The 90s bring new questions
New solutions to be found
I fell in love to be let down

Once again we dance in the
crowd
At times a step away
From a common fear that's all
spread out
It won't listen to what you say
Once you're touched you stand
alone
To face the bitter fight
Once I reached for love
And now I reach for life

Another chance to lift my life
Free the sensation in my heart
To ride the wings of dreams
into changing horizons
It brings inner peace within my
mind,
As I'm lifted from where I've
spilt my life
I hear an innocent voice
I hear kindness, beauty and
truth

The way your heart sounds
makes all the difference
It's what decides if you'll endure
the pain that we all feel
The way your heart beats
makes all the difference
In learning to live
Spread before you is your soul
So forever hold the dreams
within our hearts
Through nature's inflexible
grace
I'm learning to live"

Dream Theater, "Learning to Live", Images and Words.


Twilight and Beauty,
Salome

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